An Energetic Note About: Walking Through The Fire

The cycles and patterns of my energy have become more apparent over the last 10 years.

I have witnessed the same cycles at play for such a long time now that I am actually terrified and equally proud of just how unbothered I am.

I have gate 51 in my incarnation cross, along with the activation of gate 36 and the theme of shock and crisis does not go unnoticed ha!

I find myself in 7 year cycles of having to walk through a wall of fire in order to activate the expansion and growth available on the other side.

It is exhausting, and something I have learned to navigate with my head down and my heart open.

It's my design.

I am to walk through the fire first to then be able to guide people through without getting as burned as I did.

Thanks soul for choosing me as your vehicle for this mission - said tongue in cheek.

Right now I find myself in quite the most ridiculous fire walk so far in my almost 46 years of life..

But there is an excited anticipation inside of me because I know it is like an elastic band effect, I get pulled 10 steps back to be effortlessly catapulted 50 steps forward, as long as I just surrender to it all.

My most powerful comebacks have come from moments just like this in previous cycles throughout my life.

But there were decades before this glorious awareness where I felt like life was just hell, nothing was working out, and I constantly found myself saying ‘Why me??’ or ‘What now??’

I resisted the shocking scenarios and I bullied myself throughout them, I called myself a mess, a joke, unlucky, incapable, less than….

Beliefs that took years to overcome and that seriously limited my entire experience of life in the process,

I didn't dare dream big or take myself seriously because - i’m a mess, a joke, incapable, less than.

I lived in a state of freeze, my nervous system feeling quite safe with me being a serial procrastinator.

I was reading the first chapter of my book - which by the way is actually almost done eek! A Liberation - New Beginnings With Human Design, out in spring 2026 (got to get that plug in); and in the first chapter I talk about why I feel in love with Human Design and how I felt it really is the missing piece in personal liberation.

Thanks to Human Design I was able to leave behind beliefs like ‘I’m a mess’ and ‘I'm incapable, not enough and less than’

Before Human Design I had studied many transformational modalities, for those who do not know I actually started my journey in the realms of child psychology - motivated from the fact that I had become a single mother at the time and I didn’t want to screw up children's lives so I studied child and adolescent psychology for four years which led me into the realms of adult psychology, trauma healing, transformation, mindset and all the things.

I am actually a Cognitive Behavioural Therapy Practitioner, Neurolinguistic Programming Practitioner, and a Trauma Informed Practitioner - along with a load of other professional certifications including EFT, EMDR, Reiki, & Life Coaching.

I LOVE the human experience, I am fascinated by conscious creation, how the mind works, energetics, and even through all of my training and experience there always seemed to be that one thing missing.

What I found was people were open to change, open to see themselves differently, open to their intuitive nudges and inner knowing of the choices and life they should be creating….. But the belief was not strong enough to facilitate a sustainable shift.

They yoyo'ed back and forth, making progress and then not.

And this is where Human Design came in, for me it gave me an anchor and a believable anchor,

It was that mirror being reflected back to you, confirmation of the nudges, confirmation of that inner knowing.

It was a stepping stone for those who were not yet able to live in blind faith of the vision they could see for themselves.

It also gave me clarity of why life had shaped the way it had so far - like the cycles of shock being my unique path in life.

And being able to understand why I had to go through the shock and gifted me the opportunity to see just how much I had grown as an individual each time when I did.

It shifted how I saw these road blocks or shocks, which allowed me to just be in surrender knowing it was a gift in motion and all would be revealed if I just stayed in that surrender.

It also affirmed to me things I knew, it affirmed to me my unique traits, perspective, and way of being.

I never ever advise people to take Human Design as gospel (some die hard HD peeps do), I believe it's an incredible self awareness tool for self empowerment and actually taking your power back in life so you can become that conscious creator you know possible.

It gave me access to my unique inner alchemy path - showing me what parts of me needed to be re-perceived, released, embraced, and integrated.

It makes life feel exciting again, it makes you feel less trapped or stuck.

It was quite evident that my energy was susceptible to the abandonment wound, which I got to work mastering.

It was also quite evident that I had been stuck in safe patterns that had wrecked my nervous system - so again, it gave me a personal focus for my own transformation.

It taught me how to relate to people who get on my very last nerve haha

It taught me how to understand my children and see their individual potential,

The biggest thing for me was understanding the nature of my defined solar plexus, and how intense my emotional experience can be, teaching me patience, grace, and slowness.

You cannot be a fast in the moment mover with a defined solar plexus, it's all about divine timing.

It showed me why I had struggled to express myself effectively, open throat and defined solar plexus is a wild combination to navigate.

And finally it reinforced the fact that I already knew, we are powerful creators of our own individual experience of life, and the more unapologetic we are in the expression of our needs, desires, dreams and goals - the more fun we get to have in this lifetime.

Knowing the power of the mind, the power of energetics, and the nature of our mechanical brain - life doesn't have to feel hard, we can go through tough times without it feeling like all is lost, we can bounce back, we can remain in control of our power and who we assign it to, and we are always always creating.

The thought of any one person sitting stewing over their current circumstances breaks my heart and makes me so motivated to spread awareness far and wide, to liberate people from the limitation of their current awareness and to expand them into a life that feels marvellous.

I was that person, I had given up on life and was knocked down to my knees, and what a waste of energy and precious life.

Something I do every single day, thanks to a Ho’oponopono certification (didn't mention that one above, my open Ajna forgot and it was 8 years ago…. )I remind myself of my power, my connection to source, my potent creativity, and the fact that even when it looks like a shower of shit, I did that!! Me!! That's how powerful I am, and I can create ANYTHING with that power, and I choose what I want to create every morning when I wake up.

‘I Love you, I’m Sorry, Please Forgive Me, Thank You’

And life resets and another day of being me and all of me begins.

Human Design was the final step in awareness that afforded me that.

What are you currently struggling with in life? Maybe your Human Design holds the liberation from that?

L xx